Running today, the beauty of autumn still lingers as winter begins to take hold.
The Holy Spirit begins to settle all around me as a fog, I run towards it and He fills my lungs. As I breathe Him in He revitalizes me. Filling my lungs with each breath, releasing all the negative events of late.
One little tear at a time, the Lord begins to cry, cry for all those hurt and hurting, cry for the unfathomable love He feels for each and every one of us as He walks with us every moment of every day. He helps me release and all of the sudden I take off. Running faster and faster...all my emotions out, my fears out, my sorrow, running myself out so I can let more of Him in.
I run as fast as I can till I have nothing left. Then the rain changes, from tear drops of understanding to his baptism. With every drop I am reborn in His image. Recreated within His love. I feel a bond with all the nature around me, I become one with all of His creation. We running with Him....and I feel empowered!
Now I run quickly again, but not because of running away, not to empty my spirit but to fill it! I can't get enough of His presence. I want more of Him, bless me oh Lord, BLESS ME.
Fog lies before me again and as my body tires I push myself toward it, I need to reach it. To feel His embrace once more and as I finally approach it I feel an intense love for me, one I don't understand. One I don't deserve but gladly accept.
I finish my run with a new rejuvenated focus on my Heavenly Father and a greater connection with nature. I needed this and praise the Lord for those in my life who understand this bond, and help motivate me to move beyond my fears of failure, of others hurting me, and most of all my fear of letting others down and what they want for me instead of worrying about letting myself down. Of figuring out what I want for me. I realize due to my past I've created, to keep myself away from myself.
I cannot wait to rediscover who this Child of Christ really is, once she lets go of everything holding her back.