Wednesday, July 22, 2015

All things in God's timing

So many things happened...and so many more to come.

I ran my marathon on December 28th, 2014 @ 3:47:16...12 minutes from Boston time, which I'm quite proud of really! I placed 4th for my age group which for my first full marathon I thought was really great.

Will I run another one? Maybe one day but not soon! Everyone calls me a runner, and maybe I am, maybe I was but I'm growing into something more...I don't know, but I do know there is more to me then just that. 

My goals for 2015:

  1. To do an unassisted pull-up (which I have achieved btw)
  2. To climb a rope without knots (which I have also done, albeit not well lol)
  3. To move out
2 out of 3 is not bad, and much quicker then I expected to achieve them really, but that is thanks to someone who's really motivated me recently...that I am so honored that God blessed me with.

He has supported and pushed me far more then I probably deserve and the progress I've made is all thanks to him.  He has also helped me develop new goals, one which I am excited (and really scared of), if I get everything set up, I will tell everyone about later!

Moving out? Maybe, currently my challenge is just getting a better paying job and getting my debt under control. Once I have those dealt with I will move further.

I've really been having my mind on the Lord more recently, not necessarily anything in particular but just in general. 

1 Corinthians 2:16 - For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.
Romans 12:2 - And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
1 Corinthians 2:14-16 - But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know [them], because they are spiritually discerned.   (Read More...)
Philippians 2:5 - Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:
1 Corinthians 2:13-16 - Which things also we speak, not in the words which man's wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth; comparing spiritual things with spiritual.   (Read More...)
John 5:30 - I can of mine own self do nothing: as I hear, I judge: and my judgment is just; because I seek not mine own will, but the will of the Father which hath sent me.
2 Timothy 1:7 - For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
1 Peter 1:13 - Wherefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ;
Ephesians 5:1 - Be ye therefore followers of God, as dear children;
1 Peter 4:17 - For the time [is come] that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if [it] first [begin] at us, what shall the end [be] of them that obey not the gospel of God?
1 Peter 1:3 - Blessed [be] the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,
1 John 2:6 - He that saith he abideth in him ought himself also so to walk, even as he walked.
James 1:27 - Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, [and] to keep himself unspotted from the world.

All things in God's timing, While things aren't perfect, I am happy where I am at and really excited to see what things will be coming soon! 

One of which is my 30th birthday! 

Saturday, February 28, 2015

ReeBee rant

So it's been awhile, didn't do great at posting while I was running for my marathon but here ya go, I ran a test run at 3:57:51 and ran the actual marathon in 3:47:14 or something close. My friends want me to try to run another this year and beat my time to make Boston time, which is 3:35:00 but we shall see.

I'm working on trying to build muscle currently, do an unassisted pull up...gaining some weight but it's muscle and trying to remember that.

I'm posting today to vent...I think I probably have on this before so bear with me but I'm really sick of people blowing off my struggles just because I was younger when I battled them.

Okay so yes, I was overweight in my younger years, it was 8th grade when I hit my heaviest weight at over 190lbs, a size 18 was tight. I remember crying in the dressing room when none of the pants in the girls clothing fit me.  I battled with depression and my weight all through high school, although I did take body sculpting and lost 10 sent me into an eating disorder after I graduated (when *shock* a boy was actually interested in me) and I've now battled that mindset ever since.

While it's not the prettiest story and its also not the messiest it's mine. Don't blow it off as nothing, just because I was younger then you when I battled it doesn't negate the pain or it's influence on my life.  It hurt. I still understand what it feels like to be fat, ugly, unpopular,  depressed, weak...I know what's its like to be overweight and underweight, to want to scare people away and hide and shrink away from them.

Despite the battle I still go though today due to my past, my depression, my eating disorder, & my weight I wouldn't trade it for the world cause it's shaped me into the women I am today.  While I am jealous of people who don't have to struggle with their weight and self image, if I didn't fight for it I wouldn't know how strong I really am.

Through God and by His strength I can do ALL THINGS as long is it aligns with His will!  Taking care of my temple through diet and exercise, and obstacle races help push me to discover how strong I really am and what all I am capable of.

Now that I've crushed my soap box, I'm done. Thank you.