Current

 I don't try to do a lot of these, but heck why not? Here's one from a Peanut Butter Fingers blog I thought was entertaining enough to pass some time at work:

Currently

Current Book(s):
I have two I'm reading, one is titled Cosmic Codes: Hidden Messages From the Edge of Eternity, by Chuck Missler

Other then that, I'm reading over a coworkers-husband's-friend's novel called Paradise by Mark Cahill, it's alright so far, but not really my cup of tea for a fiction novel, christian or otherwise. 

Current Music:
A new alternative radio station called radio 105.7 (96.7) which I'm totally rockin' to, otherwise just Christian Contemporary really.

Current Guilty Pleasure:
Coffee, I drink way more then I should

Current Nail Color:
Natural with little old flakes of purple on my toes. Next pedicure I'm thinking bright pink, light green of some sorts, or maybe white with a cute design...who knows!
Current Drink:
Flavored Sparkling &/or carbonated water (sugar free)

Current Food:
baby carrots and fruit

Current Favorite Show:
The Big Bang Theory with my sister at the gym, otherwise Bones & Fringe! Thanks to Netflix!

Current Wish List:
$300 to go to a homeschooling certificate training thing with my friend Chelsi! Also a new mattress, and money to catch my pets up at the vet...and a new fridge cause ours is dying sadly :(

Current needs:
A haircut, pedicure

Current Indulgence:
Coconut Ice cream! 

Current Blessing:
My friends and family, and all the love God provides for me every day through them and others! Also having a car that works well seeing as two members of my family can't say that!

Current Outfit:
yoga pants & a Life University tee with sparkly flip-flops for an easy change for the gym (which I'll be heading to soon!)

Current Excitement:
The Supercon with my friend Marie and her little girl Charlotte June 1st and then a massage with my friend Chelsi Sunday!

That did it I think, off to workout with a friend! Have an awesome Memorial day weekend!

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So I had a controlled anger-run today...which will be the norm for awhile. I had a someone send me a picture of himself and then his "little buddy" and made a comment regarding the time I got off work and what I did for fun. After totally freaking out, I realized that when I upgraded my Facebook they re-posted my phone number. I had a suspect I thought it may be so I blocked him.  I then talked to my boss, then the campus cop to make a report where he helped me retrieve the number and will be calling him for me to let him know I don't appreciate him contacting me, ever. When I returned to the library for some reason my boss and coworkers couldn't pull his profile so I unblocked him to pull it up and lo, it's gone....and here I was starting to feel like I was jumping to conclusions, and I may still be, but how creepy is that? 

Now I am being walked to my car after work, and basically trail running outside in this beautiful early spring weather is out of the question for the moment. My walks at lunch around the building while reading are even being questioned and I've had to locate my pepper spray....the pervert.

In other news, I have yet another blood test tomorrow, this one I can't shower beforehand in case the soap causes a reaction, and is also fasting.  After this I'm being put on two more medications for a month. One is an estrogen-hormone pill I'll take for 28 days, the other is one I start on day 14 and take through day 26, which is supposed to yet again cause some bleeding 2 days after the fact.  The last time they put me on it alone for 10 days I never started so we shall see.  Then I have another follow-up appointment, this one after the routine physical I scheduled at my primary care doctor. 

So what's wrong with me you may ask, sorry I'm asking the same question.  For those who I haven't talked to about this, I'll finally be open (I guess if you've stuck around reading my blog for this long you deserve it), I haven't had my monthly cycle for over 6 months.  Why? that's what is being tested.  I started the first day of high school and was irregular from the beginning, of course being told that it's normal for the first year. Then it was normal for the first couple years, then few years until I graduated at 17 still skipping months all the time. Sometime after age 18 when they started growing closer together (more than 1 per month) I finally saw the doctor regarding them and started my trials of different birth controls, which always screwed me up by the end.  I've been told it's due to my weight, exercise habit, both of which are perfectly under control now and have been for awhile and still...nothing folks. 

I don't want a pill, I want to know why...early menopause, Celiac disease, genetics, I don't care at this point as long as I knew what! I don't want to sit here and be a birth control test subject, I don't want to take it at all honestly. I don't want to take the stupid pills they're giving me now, I'm just dealing with them since it's only temporary and will hopefully bring closure to this horrible chapter of my life.

Part of me feels that it, along with my IBS issues, are both somehow also related to the crap they keep putting into foods-by genetically modifying them or spraying them with crazy chemicals-but that's just a theory, and a subject of another blog.

Well there's my rant, sorry I just need to get it all off my chest.  I know these trials will draw me closer to my Heavenly Father and Savior Christ Jesus as it is only His strength I'm running on at this point. My faith in Him, His love and protection, are what are keeping me sane at this point.  But all I ask is that I remain in your prayers.

Mary Mary quite contrary how does your garden grow?

So I'm adjusting to this whole not running much thing, sorry for those who started reading this for my runs with God posts, I will return to those eventually (hopefully soon!) :)  Once I get this whole hormones thing figured out (& I don't get so carried away that I kill my knees again lol).

Thinking on that, & some pictures some friends of mine posted:

 

Working at a place like Life University, fresh natural healthy living is kinda my thing.

I have an Uncle who distributes produce to places like Whole Foods, Publix, and another HUGE farmers market in Georgia. Talking to Him and knowing how they grow the produce that does use chemicals and the organic produce that doesn't, mixed with this whole government thing where farmers cannot save seed now...has made me think...

I wonder if the two health problems I have, that I cannot seem to get rid of no matter how healthy I am, were created from all the genetically modified foods Americans have grown up upon. Me less than some since my father grew his own produce, which is also probably why I LOVE all fruit & veggies so much today (& have my own garden now yayness). 

Every time I give into trying out a pill that supposed to help me balance out, all it does it make everything worse.

Unfortunately there's no getting around some genetic alterations, additives, & preservatives nowadays, especially when you don't have a ton of money. I mean with a father who had a level 4 Astrocytoma Glioblastoma Multiforme brain tumor, one that made medical books, made history, you don't have too much extra funds lying around sadly. 

How screwed up have we made humanity now, due to our chemical tampering, our laziness?  Parish the thought of working hard to grow natural, fresh plants the way God intended and created them originally...If God wanted it to have that crap in it, the extra fluff we think it needs, he would have created it that way to begin with.

We screw up our foods, which in turn have screwed up people. And instead of fixing the original problem we created by stopping, we instead just start popping us with even more chemicals in the form of pills, shots, vaccines, etc. Then when they stop working we still don't fix the problem, we just create additional medicines to take with the original pills.  

Great health system model to me...but oh wait, we're 'fixing' the medical system right?  

We're making the doctors more smiley.

Through little I can change the world, one soul at a time.

56. Getting sucked into a really good book

 57.  raindrops slowly dripping down my face

 58. A good massage, whether professional or just at home

59. A feeling after a good adjustment.

60. Helping people achieve their dreams


This is one I've just realized. Recently, I reached my 3 year anniversary at Life University's Library (now named the Sid E. & Nell K. Williams library) and after befriending on Facebook a few graduating students to keep in touch I understand why God has placed me there. Seeing the passion and joy really speaks to me.

It lets you know although I am not much, I do much...
Through little I can change the world, one soul at a time. 

Who's the real butt head here...

*Originally written August 20th, 2010*

God has really put upon my heart the search for true joy, happiness, and contentment.  I want to shine His light unto all the world & show them His love that is much needed...& part of this process is realizing who you really are, who you've become when you weren't looking.

I work in a library at a college & there are occasional students who are, perish the thought to them, difficult to say the least.  They either want you to do all the work for them & refuse any other type of assistance. Then there are the ones that just seem to always carry that 'deer in headlights' appearance, no matter how many different ways you find to explain even the simplest task.  They're are also the students who have already decided that they want to be a butt head, & then act upon that decision for no real reason at all besides there either just not happy, or a true butt head.

Most times you can tell what kind of person they are just by looking at them or the initial contact words...but sometimes, as everybody does sadly, we misjudge who the real butt head is.

I had a student who, to say the least, looked like a 'deer in headlights' type of student. One that was never going to get my instructions and just become confused to the point that I would end up doing it myself...Sweet but maybe a little special in the inner-head department.  She came and I lucked out that there weren't any available computers at the first time and she left. I secretly thanked the Lord God above and prayed she didn't return, but thank our heavenly Father He knows what is best and doesn't always answer us.  She returned, while I was in the middle of a situation with the wonderful lady I have been blessed to work under and alongside, and low and behold but who walked in but whom I deemed the 'special' student.  Pam let me handle it since I had already talked with the student on what it was she was wanting (which I was soooo excited about) and grudgingly walked with her to the computer...

Well I had a surprise blessing and lesson that day!  She was such a joy to work with, understood what I told her, and was so amazed and exceedingly grateful for my help! She just had to show me her finished presentation's printout and happily went to her class to present it.  It really spoke to me about the Joy of the Lord and shining the light of Christ within us and left me feeling His love for us and everyone. It also made me look at myself and realize that I could definitely be categorized as a 'butt head'.

A few weeks later this was read during our morning power-up-a campus-wide daily ritual where we get news updates and thoughts to ponder upon and discuss, and sometimes a WOW story...boy was this a wow story to me! And I had the joy of helping create her presentation! I always make a point to greet this wonderful girl, daughter of the Most High God who helped me see how bright someones light can be. Helped me stop looking and judging what category everyone else was and look at myself and which one I could file myself into.

Here is her WOW story:

WOW:
PASS Advisor Jasmine McMillan gives her First Year Experience students a project to present their “brand.” It could be a tag line, an item, a mission statement, or a picture that represents what they want to say about themselves to the world. When the students were making their presentations, the last student stood up with a picture of a bench. She began to tell her story with her tag line “Remember the bench”.
She then went on to say, “A few years ago, I was homeless and living on the streets. I had three children and nowhere to go. I finally got tired and reflected on my life. I knew there had to be something better and I wanted a better life for my children. I was lost and had no direction so I went online and typed the word “Life.” Life University came up in my search. I looked at the website and got excited about what could be and the opportunity it would bring for my children. So here I am now, a student before you. I am a living example of what could be and what you can achieve if you only believe. When times get hard, I always tell myself, “Remember the bench”. When times get rough in class, I say, “Remember the bench.” I encourage all of you to look at this picture and realize what you have and what could be…and remember the bench.” When she finished, no one in her class remained unmoved.

Each of us would also do well to remember our blessings…to remember the struggles…and remember the bench. 8/16

Life University Daily Power up-Monday 8/16/2010