Wednesday, July 22, 2015

All things in God's timing

So many things happened...and so many more to come.

I ran my marathon on December 28th, 2014 @ 3:47:16...12 minutes from Boston time, which I'm quite proud of really! I placed 4th for my age group which for my first full marathon I thought was really great.

Will I run another one? Maybe one day but not soon! Everyone calls me a runner, and maybe I am, maybe I was but I'm growing into something more...I don't know, but I do know there is more to me then just that. 

My goals for 2015:

  1. To do an unassisted pull-up (which I have achieved btw)
  2. To climb a rope without knots (which I have also done, albeit not well lol)
  3. To move out
2 out of 3 is not bad, and much quicker then I expected to achieve them really, but that is thanks to someone who's really motivated me recently...that I am so honored that God blessed me with.

He has supported and pushed me far more then I probably deserve and the progress I've made is all thanks to him.  He has also helped me develop new goals, one which I am excited (and really scared of), if I get everything set up, I will tell everyone about later!

Moving out? Maybe, currently my challenge is just getting a better paying job and getting my debt under control. Once I have those dealt with I will move further.

I've really been having my mind on the Lord more recently, not necessarily anything in particular but just in general. 

1 Corinthians 2:16 - For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.
Romans 12:2 - And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
1 Corinthians 2:14-16 - But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know [them], because they are spiritually discerned.   (Read More...)
Philippians 2:5 - Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:
1 Corinthians 2:13-16 - Which things also we speak, not in the words which man's wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth; comparing spiritual things with spiritual.   (Read More...)
John 5:30 - I can of mine own self do nothing: as I hear, I judge: and my judgment is just; because I seek not mine own will, but the will of the Father which hath sent me.
2 Timothy 1:7 - For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
1 Peter 1:13 - Wherefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ;
Ephesians 5:1 - Be ye therefore followers of God, as dear children;
1 Peter 4:17 - For the time [is come] that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if [it] first [begin] at us, what shall the end [be] of them that obey not the gospel of God?
1 Peter 1:3 - Blessed [be] the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,
1 John 2:6 - He that saith he abideth in him ought himself also so to walk, even as he walked.
James 1:27 - Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, [and] to keep himself unspotted from the world.

All things in God's timing, While things aren't perfect, I am happy where I am at and really excited to see what things will be coming soon! 

One of which is my 30th birthday! 

Saturday, February 28, 2015

ReeBee rant

So it's been awhile, didn't do great at posting while I was running for my marathon but here ya go, I ran a test run at 3:57:51 and ran the actual marathon in 3:47:14 or something close. My friends want me to try to run another this year and beat my time to make Boston time, which is 3:35:00 but we shall see.

I'm working on trying to build muscle currently, do an unassisted pull up...gaining some weight but it's muscle and trying to remember that.

I'm posting today to vent...I think I probably have on this before so bear with me but I'm really sick of people blowing off my struggles just because I was younger when I battled them.

Okay so yes, I was overweight in my younger years, it was 8th grade when I hit my heaviest weight at over 190lbs, a size 18 was tight. I remember crying in the dressing room when none of the pants in the girls clothing fit me.  I battled with depression and my weight all through high school, although I did take body sculpting and lost 10 sent me into an eating disorder after I graduated (when *shock* a boy was actually interested in me) and I've now battled that mindset ever since.

While it's not the prettiest story and its also not the messiest it's mine. Don't blow it off as nothing, just because I was younger then you when I battled it doesn't negate the pain or it's influence on my life.  It hurt. I still understand what it feels like to be fat, ugly, unpopular,  depressed, weak...I know what's its like to be overweight and underweight, to want to scare people away and hide and shrink away from them.

Despite the battle I still go though today due to my past, my depression, my eating disorder, & my weight I wouldn't trade it for the world cause it's shaped me into the women I am today.  While I am jealous of people who don't have to struggle with their weight and self image, if I didn't fight for it I wouldn't know how strong I really am.

Through God and by His strength I can do ALL THINGS as long is it aligns with His will!  Taking care of my temple through diet and exercise, and obstacle races help push me to discover how strong I really am and what all I am capable of.

Now that I've crushed my soap box, I'm done. Thank you.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

These dreams go on when I close my eyes

I never remember dreams and for once I remember 2 back-to-back involving the same person who recently hasn't even talked to me. Not sure if its cause that's been on my mind or what but its rare to NEVER that I remember dreams so I am writing them out in case something comes of them.

Sunday night dream

He called me, for the first time-I remember thinking it odd since he never has and was going to tell me something, needed to tell me something but got cut off and then I woke up

Monday night dream

I was heading (late) for a class which while it reminded me of the English class I took with Marie in college, I think was some health course.  He called me to remind me to bring a snack cause I wouldn't have time to eat. Once I arrived apparently the professor has asked the class to introduce themselves and tell the one thing they would've done if talent, ability, education, and knowledge weren't a problem. He had just spoken his mentioning someone like Charles Something. I went and sat in the back of the class and after he finished he got his stuff from the front and brought it to the back to desk beside me, along with a bowl of chicken noodle soup the professor apparently made for the class (which I found convenient). I was thinking of what I would say, which was a ballerina since that's what I always wanted to do as a child and still enjoy watching to this day, when I woke up.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Taking back the trail

So  I know I missed a post from my first long run on a road, and then Mondays run before I even get to today's.

Saturday was a 12 mile run and my first long run on a paved trail. I ran straight from my house to the Silver Comet and brought one goo thing to take half way. It went well and I ran faster then I thought I'd be able to, hitting an average of 8:30 minute per mile.  The weather has been great so that mixed with actually taking a supplement really helped my time.

 yes that is a Vulcan salute 

 my time was really better but I did a cool-down which killed the pace per mile on the bottom, I've still not loaded my data off the Garmin so this is all I've got. I want to put it on a new laptop but doubt that I should spend the money on it, so until I decide to this will have to do.

It was so nice to see so many runners and people on the trails Saturday morning!  Women running in pairs as well as some running alone like myself, as well as men and families.  We cannot let fear control us and scare us away from doing what we love.

Together we can take back the trails.

Monday Tina and I ran at the gym, so nothing very exciting except we got to watch Bones, I've never ran to a show before really so it was interesting.

Today I decided to run the advanced run of 8 instead of the 5 I usually do, mainly cause Saturday I won't be able to do my long run since I'm running the Savage race with a friend that is coming up from Florida.  Again the weather was amazing and Oreo even ran the whole thing with me.  I think that doing the same route (he's a bit scared of cars and cyclists) we always ran in the neighborhood was getting to him so I risked it and took him on the trail which really helped power him.

I will admit that I miss my runs with the Lord...I hate that the idea of trying to run again without music and just my thoughts and prayers to God. The idea of being quiet before Him as nature surrounds me sounds great but impossible for me. I guess at least I still have the desire to be with Him intimately. I just have to find a way we can.

I think training for my marathon, knowing I have certain distances and speeds I need to reach is making it harder, but after I've achieved this I want to return to these calmer runs. The runs I did just for fun, just to being with my heavenly Father.

On a side note we had to reschedule our Prophecy group to Thursday this week in place of Tuesday so cannot wait for that!

Lastly, the group workout I had mentioned in a few posts didn't workout. Which does show me that I think God has me going in a different direction, but at least allowed me to meet two wonderful people along the way. Now I have the rest of this year to save and think about becoming a substitute Ride instructor for Gold's, if they still need one by then.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Running & Revelation 17

Another great run with Oreo. Not quite as fast as yesterday, but still so proud that he ran a little over 5 miles. His time was above 9:30 minute miles but he was definitely getting tired.

I've been trying to figure out the change, and what I think has helped is the temperature dropping (major help), me running him more in general, I've started not holding the leach tight and letting him try to run just on his own around me which I definitely think has contributed. But the last two runs I've also tried something else, encouragement.

When he starts to fall behind I've started calling him, not a quick tug yet just a sweet happy Oreo call. The kind I do when I just get home & want to get him all excited. I really think it helps. Right after calling he usually comes trotting back beside me, or closer at least then he was.  It definitely shows me the power of being positive and an uplifting spirit. Encouragement goes a long way and is something if I am wanting to become certified in Ride I'll need to learn better.

17 And there came one of the seven angels which had the seven vials, and talked with me, saying unto me, Come hither; I will shew unto thee the judgment of the great whore that sitteth upon many waters:
With whom the kings of the earth have committed fornication, and the inhabitants of the earth have been made drunk with the wine of her fornication.
So he carried me away in the spirit into the wilderness: and I saw a woman sit upon a scarlet coloured beast, full of names of blasphemy, having seven heads and ten horns.
And the woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet colour, and decked with gold and precious stones and pearls, having a golden cup in her hand full of abominations and filthiness of her fornication:
And upon her forehead was a name written, Mystery, Babylon The Great, The Mother Of Harlots And Abominations Of The Earth.
And I saw the woman drunken with the blood of the saints, and with the blood of the martyrs of Jesus: and when I saw her, I wondered with great admiration.
And the angel said unto me, Wherefore didst thou marvel? I will tell thee the mystery of the woman, and of the beast that carrieth her, which hath the seven heads and ten horns.
The drunk with the wine of her fornication reminds me of those who use wine for communion, which I don't find wrong personally let me just say now. Oftentimes the church will use a fancy cup when they do which also reminds me of what is described... But what came to mind this morning is that if they were taking communion and the Lord felt like she cheated on Him, and not just her but lead how many others to do the horrible, openly defying God while acting like you are serving the Lord, you are really mocking Him and His sacrifice. Acting like she's serving God while killing and misleading His people.  
Of course she's riding the beast, so I guess that kinda shows the state that the world is in during this time. Cause also, she is splendorous enough that she causes him, knowing all this about her, to have "wondered with great admiration"

Hard to imagine anyone would look up and follow someone like that, yet we will, and then again, look at most of the celebrities and sport stars, artists, and politicians. Look at what they do, listen to the news and see it's not hard to believe after all...

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

It's all gone to the dogs...

So today I did another 5 miles with Oreo, and although I felt exhausted before I even started and I worried about my knees handling it, we had a very good run. With the breeze and slightly cooler temperature it felt awesome. And he did great!

For the first time in what feels like forever (although really less then a year) he ran over 3.5 miles and didn't drag me.

The first 3 miles he ran at an average 9 minute mile pace, and the last 2.5 at less then 9:30 minute miles.  I am so very proud of him!

Last night I took r30 (the short & sweet bike class at Gold's Gym) and then did back and arms again before heading home.

I'm really considering getting my certification with ride so I  can be a substitute instructor...I really do enjoy the class.  But that is a long ways away from now.

I have some time to decide, and see how group workout does, but I really do think I may try to get certified next year once my marathon is overwith. What attracted me to Strong was the christian background it had, but they've kinda watered it down to attract more people...but then to me, it makes it no different then all the other "group" workouts out there, and we have a few in the area I'm just not sure.

In the meantime, aside from my obstacle races, I have a half  I might do with a friend for Thanksgiving in place of my Gobblejog 10k/5k I usually do and maybe a couple 5ks with another friend, so things are coming along!

In our prophesy group we have been having an in-depth study of the day of the Lord and are about to discuss the various views on the rapture, or great catching away, which should be interesting!