*Originally written on September 11th, 2010*
During my run today, as I stared at the holy white and pastel blue accents with golden hues shining through the trees and a line from a book from high school came to mind.
Stay gold, Ponyboy. Stay gold
This is from the outsiders after Ponyboy quotes Robert Frost's 'Nothing Gold Can Stay'
Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leafs a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
As I continued running, He spoke to me about persuing. I work so hard at persuing the Lord, trying to grow closer to Him and I think He told me that I needed to let Him persue me. Wow, God wants to persue me! It takes a bit to really absorb...stop pushing so hard...it goes along with all the other words He's spoken to me, reminding me of peace, how patience is how you handle a storm, be a gentle and quite spirit, and the such.
Then as I finished and did a quick cooldown I turned around to head to my stretching spot and had the golden sun shine all over me and absorb all throughout my being. Which returns me to the quote...why? What is it about that...something to ponder upon...
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Friday, April 8, 2011
popping the 'zits' of life
*Originally posted on May 25th, 2010*
You can look at bad situations two ways-at how much they suck or what God is really trying to reveal to you, how his trying to help you grow. I have had eating issues before, but I thought I had gotten through them, but after a while I was having issues getting my weight back up again...which kinda I figured was the LORD showing me that I wasn't as 'over it' as I thought I was...
Its like God got me to the worst I could possibly go, and let me drop there to show me what I was becoming, and who I didn't want to be...after getting confronted by family, friends and then work, I started trying to get help
Once I start to realize I needed to get better, regardless if I really saw the truth or not, I made an appointment to see a wellness coach, who after so many HELLO GOD IS HERE moments showing me that I'm going the right direction, his direction, and I have a plan, and I'm meeting up with the coach to get some tips at the gym, on how far I should go and shouldn't go while I'm trying to gain weight and muscle...and what should happen but I get sick! I had to cancel and reschedule in the future whenever I get better.
Normally, the flesh side of me would ask why but while in the bath (I love bath revelations lol) that the time before, the time with the friend was the time of purging, He had to bring it all to the surface so that He could bring me to the next phase, of cleaning me. That's kinda what getting sick represents, an outward showing of an inward change.
As gross of an example as it is, it reminds me of a zit, you have to have all the puss yuckness rise to the surface, so that it can be released and cleaned. If you try to do it yourself and force it, like I did the first time, the zit then comes back and sometimes with a swollen vengeance, and can even end up scaring you...but if you let them run their course, you let God do his work in you then it will clear up TOTALLY...
So the next time your life really sucks, or maybe just the next time you have a zit, remember God and that everything has a purpose and with patience all will come to surface and be revealed :)
You can look at bad situations two ways-at how much they suck or what God is really trying to reveal to you, how his trying to help you grow. I have had eating issues before, but I thought I had gotten through them, but after a while I was having issues getting my weight back up again...which kinda I figured was the LORD showing me that I wasn't as 'over it' as I thought I was...
Its like God got me to the worst I could possibly go, and let me drop there to show me what I was becoming, and who I didn't want to be...after getting confronted by family, friends and then work, I started trying to get help
Once I start to realize I needed to get better, regardless if I really saw the truth or not, I made an appointment to see a wellness coach, who after so many HELLO GOD IS HERE moments showing me that I'm going the right direction, his direction, and I have a plan, and I'm meeting up with the coach to get some tips at the gym, on how far I should go and shouldn't go while I'm trying to gain weight and muscle...and what should happen but I get sick! I had to cancel and reschedule in the future whenever I get better.
Normally, the flesh side of me would ask why but while in the bath (I love bath revelations lol) that the time before, the time with the friend was the time of purging, He had to bring it all to the surface so that He could bring me to the next phase, of cleaning me. That's kinda what getting sick represents, an outward showing of an inward change.
As gross of an example as it is, it reminds me of a zit, you have to have all the puss yuckness rise to the surface, so that it can be released and cleaned. If you try to do it yourself and force it, like I did the first time, the zit then comes back and sometimes with a swollen vengeance, and can even end up scaring you...but if you let them run their course, you let God do his work in you then it will clear up TOTALLY...
So the next time your life really sucks, or maybe just the next time you have a zit, remember God and that everything has a purpose and with patience all will come to surface and be revealed :)
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