While taking ride this morning at the gym with my bestie, the working recovery song started to play, a remix of Coldplay's "Clocks" and although I've heard this song many-a-time this one lyric stuck out in my thoughts
"Am I part of the cure or am I part of the disease"
Thinking on the journey both my friend and I have been on. All the struggles, trials, ups and downs. The failures, the falling upon our knees and the cries to God. The pain...it all came with something else, the love. The love of God, our Father being shown to us through it all. The love of others, especially each other as we edify each other along this road we walk along in this life.
I attended her graduation from college, a very tough journey and amazing accomplishment for her. I felt honored to be included in this event. It's been one of the best weeks I've had for awhile and while now she prepares mentally as much as physically for her congratulations reward trip with her family cruise trip to the Bahamas, I think back on all that we've been through together, these few years I've known her.
Through all this, all we've done wrong and right. Positive and negative what kind of impact am I leaving? What have I already left? Through the pain and trials I still battle with inside, have I left the world a better place? Am I helping to cure this world of this disease? The disease of hatred? Hatred toward yourself and toward others? It is a question I not only cannot answer, I don't feel I have the right to, I think it's one that needs to be answered by those around me. Those who come after.
It's one that will be answered before the Great Judge, the KING of Kings & LORD of Lords.
What kind of life did I live? What kind of light did I shine? What kind of love did I show?